Something just occurred to me. There is a torrent of excitement headed my way. I’ve just loaded the Jave onto an Amtrak that shuttles human flesh and human flesh’s vehicle on a 17 hour trip down to South Florida. Over the next few weeks I’ll be snowboarding in South Lake Tahoe and Breckenridge. I’m moving into a beautiful condo in West Palm Beach that has my name on the deed - don’t ask how I got my name there. I’ll be seeing two of my favorite artists play at Red Rocks surrounded by some people that, candidly, make me feel like I can open tuna cans with no can opener. Not the cans that have that nice little prong to help “The Tuna User” open it. This is an old school Bumblebee Can that requires a DEVICE to facilitate its AWAKENING – I’ve digressed pretty fucking hard but the point is, these people make me feel great and I’m excited to see them. Over the next few week’s I’m going to be up late, making memories JACKED UP on thrill and concentrated happiness. I’ll be surfing in South Florida and possibly be making a very large investment in what could be a life changing acquisition….a blue or red lava lamp for my new room. In addition to THE LAMP, I’ll be tossing a floor mattress on the ground because box springs and bed frames are for old people who fear what lurks onfloor. I am not afraid of the floor. I am a floor dwelling troglodyte and I’m proud to declare that to the heavens. I’ll be purchasing a tapestry over the washing and drying machine so that my “room” doesn’t look like the laundry room that it literally is. These are some things that are boiling my guts with a delirious exhilaration.
But the funny thing is…..that’s not even the “Excitement” that I was referring to. It dawned on me a few minutes ago that I have this precious life along with a grand adventure of a life to come - A perennial life shared with God.
Lately I’ve been very bogged down by negative self talk. If you’re not familiar with “Negative Self Talk,” I’ll give you an example: “Oh way to go Kyle. You screwed that deal up and forecasted it for this month even though the primary trustee was too far removed from the decision making process. You told your manager that it was going to close this quarter but it didn’t. Now everyone at the company thinks you eat hard boiled eggs for every FUCKING meal of the day, you soy boy beta cuck! Go watch everyone in the world have fun from behind the curtains where you belong you pathetic pig rolling in shit.” That’s negative self talk. It has been pervasive lately.
But referring back to my grand discovery - Recently a beautiful realization has reintroduced itself to me - This world is temporary and heaven is the one that counts. This truth has brought a wave of peace that hugged me like a weighted blanket which I’m also thinking about investing in….they’re really nice. They help you feel loved and relaxed basically just by smashing your body into whatever lurks beneath you.. If you’re ever down….just smash yourself. Anyway, a few minutes ago I just thought, “Wow, I have so much ahead of me and so much love to experience.” I have a never ending future. I get to explore and laugh and fall in love. I get the privilege of genuinely believing that one day, I’ll die and that’ll just be the beginning. I feel thankful for this. I think I’m going to go fuck around and buy a lava lamp and a weighted blanket. I love you peeps and I’m excited to share the future with you.
Sincerely,
A slightly drunk man
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